I am overweight.
There. I said it. It’s out in the world.
I’ve struggled with my weight since I was a kid. Running, at times, has made managing it easier. But marathon training last fall, combined with a disappointing performance in that race, let to a downward spiral. I’ve stopped listening to my healthy inner voice and candy, chips, bread, and lots of wine, have become commonplace in my diet.
I’m working out differently, adding muscle through strength training, and trying not to focus on becoming breathless in every workout. I’m focused on walking as much as possible, until told to cut it down a few weeks ago due to an injury. Focusing on pairing those workouts with healthy foods has gotten some increased attention, but I know I have an all or nothing mentality. So if I get tired of not having any treats, I go totally off the wagon.
So, I decided to change my way of thinking, again. I joined Weight Watchers, sticking to the online program, and am refocusing on the value of the foods I eat, and knowing that even if I’m not proud of some decisions, logging them, and knowing I can offset it by being active, is already helping.
My victory this week: last night I really wanted cherry Twizzlers as I left work. I bought a bag, came home and ate it while watching tv, and contemplated pretending I hadn’t eaten it. If you don’t log it, it didn’t happen, right? Wrong. I know that’s part of why I’m struggling with losing the 20+ pounds I need to lose. So I logged it. 30 points. That’s a entire day’s worth of points. I’m currently over my weekly extra points by 37. I’m not happy about it, but I know what it is, and can see exactly why the scale may not go down this week.
I’m learning. I’m seeing the “why”. I will adjust. I want to be healthier, I want to feel better, and that’s why I will make this work.
Are you part of Weight Watchers? I’d love to connect on the app… My Username is: cldem80
What’s your go to stress food?
What tips do you have for anyone trying to make changes?